These past few months have been quite an unlucky month. Unfavourable events keep coming one after another.

1) Somewhere in November? I fell down and sprained my left ankle while I was walking out of a restaurant (OKAY! I was looking at my phone and did not watch where I was going). my foot still has not fully heal until now.


2) I was sick on 25th December (CHRISTMAS DAY!) and had to visit the doctor twice in a day.

3) I bruised my right wrist on 31st December (NEW YEAR EVE!) and had to visit the doctor twice because it was swelling horribly. Literally ending the year with a BAMMMMMMM!


5) Had a difficult week at work.

6) Had bad experience dining in Gloria Jeans cafe. Written a long complaint letter to the manager.


7) Had an argument with Janice the nurse from Loh Guan Lye because she threatened to forfeit our RM100 deposit over a cancellation of an appointment that I didn't make.

Laying out the problems like this help me see that well, it wasn't really that bad. And most of the bad incidents are due to my own clumsiness and I don't really need to be so stress over this. But I sincerely hope that the coming year will be smooth sailing for me. Fingers and toes crossed.

This morning I did some self reflections and realised that it is easy for humans to see fault in other people
but are often blinded by their own mistakes. And I am not an exception. I often put blame in other people first when something gone wrong. And next step, will be to victimised myself. This is a bad habit, I knew it but I didn't realise that constant complaining doesn't gain you respect but in return, make people distant themselves away from you.

Take the recent incident for example, the boss commented us about with the regards of our project management. We were defensive and were fast to point blames to the bosses for being indecisive about their decision. But when we had our discussion with her, I came to realise that the project were given to our team mate in mid of December but she only started the project in January. Her reason was, it due to Christmas and everyone was off for holidays. But what the boss expected was a proper justification and the implications by the delays.

This incident taught me to look at things at a broader approach. Look beyond our reasoning. Keep calm and stay positive instead of draining my energy and create unnecessary stress by complaining. And to also do self reflection to see if we are at fault and think about ways to prevent the same thing from happening. And lastly, apologise, put aside the conflicts and just move on.

It has been quite tough at work this week. My teammates and I seem to have make mistakes everyday since Monday. Timeline, priorities, lunch hours, etc etc have been pointed out to us. NO JOKE. And each comments made by the manager seem personal. For example, we went out for lunch and came back in 1.5 hours and we were sounded for being late without prior notification. But in our defense, we were not the only one late. There have been many occasions where others came in late more than we did. Of course we did not say anything because WE HAVE LEARNT when this happens, the best defense is to keep quite and say alright, I understood and sorry. Yes that was my exact word when our boss gave us a piece of her mind.

And the day before, one of us were sounded for not having proper project management causing ME to stay over and do work. I voiced out saying that I actually enjoyed doing what I did and was told that I am a hypocrite because I said I didn't want to do it in the beginning of our discussion. I wanted to tell her that I said that because I thought I was not supposed to do it but..never mind. I felt like I will only make the situation worse, especially to my teammate if I argue further so I can only replied with a poker face.

The moral of the story through this two incidents is, something you just need to back away and keep quiet in order to win an argument with your boss. Being defensive will only make the matter worse (even if YOU ARE RIGHT) because every single thing that you say will be treated as excuses.

Tomorrow is the last day of the week and I hope that I can go through that peacefully without any surprises. And I can feel that my teammate is sort of distancing away from me ever since the WIP meeting. I sincerely hope that she feels better soon and we will be able to build our rapport at work again.